Retreat

Some people jumped right into online classes, courses and all kinds of distance learning tools. Then, other people started asking me when I was going to start teaching online or to post on social media during all COVID-19 craziness. And to be completely honest, I need time. even though I’m home, there’s a lot going on. My days are filled with homeschooling, cooking, cleaning, safely getting groceries, etc. But most of all, my days are busy just trying to stay afloat. Keeping the basic needs of myself and my family at this time demands an incredible amount of energy.

It pains me to see so many people dealing with death and loss. It pains me to see people lose their freedom of going anywhere they'd like. We are all dealing with the same pain right now. Some are suffering more severely than others, but the pain is collective.

For now, since we are physically asked to stay inside. I am taking the time to stay metaphorically inside too. A retreat, if you will. Time to reconnect with my knowledge, my faith, my understanding of the impermanence of things. All the teachings that I had undergone before are now put into test.

All I know to do at the moment is to be patient and be kind to myself to understand that I will need some time to digest all that is going on. To comprehend all this. To reflect on all the lessons that these times are bringing and then, be able to pass something on to others. I am here trying to find my peace and quiet and, hopefully, in that silence, find some answers.

On this quiet Monday morning, as I get ready to start yet another week of quarantine, all I ask is kindness from me to myself. Forgiveness that, at this point, this is all I can do. And I wish the same to you.